the real thing ….

urlPart of my role of being Priest Missioner of the Deanery means that I get around a few churches. Last week I was snowballed in St Mark’s while this week I presided and preached at the Eucharist and Healing service at St Mary Magdalene. 

My sermon came from the lectionary test for the day of Luke 4 : 14 – 21. As I have mulled this over during the week I think something new hit me, mainly that Christ seemed to be saying in these words that to receive from God you need to be aware that you have a need. If you believe you are all sorted and together and ‘near perfect’ then God cannot help.

I suggested that people outside church were not aware God was ‘for’ them because they had an idea that God, and church, was only for sorted and perfect and good people. I wondered whether this might be because quite a lot of us in church pretend that we are together and all right, rather than being honest about our fears, our struggles and our failings.

I wondered whether if we could be more real about the reality of our lives that people might be more genuinely interested in the God we follow? A God, that Jesus suggests in these words, are the underdogs, the struggling, the needy. I suggested the words of Jesus demanded this honesty and vulnerability and realness from us.

As I think about going out this week and meeting people again …. I simply continue to wonder as I try to be real with God, myself and others

but … what if …

646I receive a daily meditation from Richard Rohr. Today he speaks in a way tyhat echoed what I was trying to express yesterday:

“The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me . . . he has sent me to bring good news to the oppressed, to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and release to the prisoners.”

~ Isaiah 61:1

In this reading from Isaiah, the prophet describes the coming Servant of Yahweh. It is precisely this quote that Jesus first uses to announce the exact nature of his own ministry (Luke 4:18-19). In each case Jesus describes his work as moving outside of polite and proper limits and boundaries to reunite things that have been marginalized or excluded by society: the poor, the imprisoned, the blind, the downtrodden.

Jesus’ ministry is not to gather the so-called good into a private country club, but to reach out to those on the edge and on the bottom—to tell those who are “last” that they might just be first! That is almost the very job description of the Holy Spirit, and therefore of Jesus. Today some call it God’s unique kind of justice or “restorative justice.” God present with us and in us, Emmanuel, justifies things by restoring them to their true and full identity in Himself, as opposed to “retributive justice” which seeks only reward and punishment.

Jesus ministry is not to gather the clean and sanitised and take them into a private club. Jesus ministry is to those who are told they are unwanted, those whose hurting make us feel uncomfortable because we know our easy ‘pat’ answers have no weight,  those who are stuck in the filth of our society.

But … and a big BUT has hit me today while talking with a group of young people. What if Jesus is talking to us from the other side of this passage? By that I mean, we so easily read this from the oppressed point of view, or from a neutral view where we are called to join in helping the oppressed. We read this from a  viewpoint that sees ourselves as part of the answer.

But … what if we are part of the problem …
What if we are the oppressors?
What if we are the people that break hearts?
What if we are those who imprison?

If we take a global view, then we, in the west, could be assessed as such. On a global scale, we are the rich. With that knowledge, how do we hear those words of Jesus? What is our response? What should be our response? What response is there?

During Advent that is quite a sobering thought.

I am enough!

Following from yesterdays vulnerability post I stumbled across this TED talk from Brene Brown. It’s around 20 minutes in length and an amazing thought provoking talk.

The basis of her talk is that connection is what life is all about. She says. ‘connection gives purpose and meaning to our lives’. That simple statement echoes, for us, the words of God in the Genesis creation account, ‘it is not good for human to be alone’. She goes on to say that we all suffer shame, a fear of disconnection. The only way to avoid this disconnection, says Brown, is to be vulnerable …. to allow ourselves to be fully seen.

But, and this is a massive but, she concludes that many feel unworthy, unvalued, unloved and so we numb our vulnerability, and that as we numb that we numb other senses.

That is not the whole talk … so go listen! (and that will explain the title of this post!)

the death zone

I found this video recently; regardless of political persuasion this is a very moving and beautifully filmed. This was filmed during the last two weeks of Philip Gould’s life and he talks of ‘excitement’, ‘joy’, and ‘approaching death’ while ’embracing life’. Most movingly he speaks of the time he understands that his life becomes death and only then did his life take on a quality that he felt it never had before.

This is simply a beautifully amazing and moving nine minutes.

day 3 …. life stories

Today has been a day of hearing stories of people. This morning, the daily office was led by one of the lay readers and she shared her story with me … and it was fascinating and I love hearing stories of people. Later in the morning I wandered to Wetherspoons and caught up with 2 or 3 people, again hearing more of their stories. This afternoon I visited the family of someone who recently died and whose funeral service I will conduct. I had  a fascinating and special time hearing their story and the story of their mum. I genuinely left their home wishing I had met the person in real life.

Today, on reflection, I would not say I have learned anything new or necessarily acquired new skills … but I have learned new things about new people … and that is a real privilege of my work.

when inaction just won’t do!

There has been a lot of ‘stuff’ in the news recently which has caused me to reflect on how harmful inaction can be.

The first incident that got me thinking is related to  John Terry. I don’t tend to criticise people here (there are invariably always at least two sides of an argument and often more) … but if most professions if a serious allegation is made against someone, that someone would be suspended from their role while the matter was investigated. Whether you believe Terry to be innocent or not is immaterial. Rightly or wrongly, suspension pending investigation, is the norm in our society in such circumstances and for this not to be applied in this incident seems wrong. Terry’s silence and refusal to act have caused some distress and embarrassment.

This contrasts with another person in the news over the last few days. For the first time ever I have to agree with the actions of a ‘ConDem’ alliance government minister. Chris Huhne also argues, like John Terry, that he is innocent. But Huhne realises the implications of the charge and so has, rightly, resigned his post and moved to the back benches while the charge is investigated.

Huhne seems to recognise the distress and embarrassment he would cause by staying in place and has acted swiftly, whereas as Terry seems not to be able to grasp that issue with the belief he can play on, alongside others, as if nothing had happened, whereas the FA cancelling a pre-match handshake shows that not to be the case.

This weekend has also shown that the reluctance to act can also have serious consequences. The actions, or rather the inactions, of both Russia and China at the UN are hard to grasp. It is shocking to think that in the light of such wrong doing that the world is unable to act, even though they long to do so and the people of Syria cry out for our help in such desperate circumstances. To see unarmed men, women and children being brutalised as other human beings, who can do something about it but choose to look on nonchalantly is sickening to the stomach.

There are times when it is correct to be quiet and do nothing. There are others. however, when action is the only way. In fact, there are times when action is demanded of us and inaction just simply won’t do!

So why do I approach these minor issues (as in Terry and Huhne) with a major catastrophe (Syria!) together? I believe the Syrias, the Kosovos, the Rwandas of the world do not just suddenly happen as sudden big steps. Leders of countries do not wake up one morning and decide to slaughter their populations and find they are able to do so unchallenged! They happen as a result of indiscernible small steps where people or issues are sidelined because they are seen as insignificant. That insignificance becomes unimportant, which becomes worthless, which then becomes sub-human. Two sets of rules are developed and accepted and massive consequences, and in the case of Syria I would say great evil, seem to creep uo and take people by surprise.

If we stay quiet and refuse to act on small issues of integrity when something serious comes along we are simply unable to act because we don’t know how to. Is it any surprise that Russia and China, two nations who have dubious human rights records at the best of times, have vetoed any Security Council action in the case of Syria. I suggest they do not see the lives of Syrian men, women and children as being important or of value.

I pray that we, as a nation, will never find ourselves in that place …. a place where we consider some lives to be better than others … a place where some are treated better than others … a place where there is one rule for one and another rule for another.

I pray we will remain a nation that knows when inaction simply will not do!

a special day …

Today I had the privilege of saying goodbye to John, a very special and unique man. I have only known John for around 2 years but in that time I have got to know and love him. He was very much a larger than life character and a character that was so obviously interested in people.

I remember my first time of seeing John. I was sat alone in the Deaf Cat, knowing very few people. John sat opposite me, told me he didn’t believe in religion and we chatted for a couple of hours. That’s the sort of guy he was …. interested in everyone or anyone.

Today a smile came to many faces as his fleet of classic cars pulled up, tears flowed as we heard some amazing singing voices and remembered moments. Amongst this, however, was a lot of laughter … unusual for a funeral …. but John would have loved it. I believe John did love it.

John will be missed by loads of friends, his family and most of all by Bet … Larger than life characters like John leave behind wonderful memories, but also big gaps … if you are the praying sort please offer a prayer for those left behind,  if you are not then please hold them in your thoughts.

Today was a special day for a very special man ….

el azúcar

Tonight I had the pleasure of attending the private viewing of Andi’s exhibition at Deaf Cat. Andi had taken the Mexican Day of the Dead theme and produced some fantastic and beautiful work – if you are in Rochester at all this week you really need to pop into Deaf Cat to see this amazing work.

Some people without looking may dismiss the exhibition thinking it to be too morbid. But it isn’t. It is bright, vibrant and strangely alive. The festival itself is about continuation of life and the celebration of life … the complete opposite to halloween.

The picture … oh meet El Azúcar, my new monacled sugar skull. I think he looks amazing sitting on my desk, although I need to find a place to show him off proper.

… space …

Due to one thing or another I have fallen behind in keeping up to date with my blog reader. No real excuse, other than I seem to be feeling very tired and quite unenthusiastic for many things at the moment. My writing here is becoming sporadic; I have a desire to write, but do not feel I have anything valid to say at this particular point in time. It’s not a painful or  bad space to be in …. it’s simply a nothing space I guess! But …. I am a firm believer that ides need space to be birthed into …. so I am waiting!

There is some good stuff out there which I have been pleased to catch up with over the past few days.

Near the top of the list is a great Nomad podcast interview with Tom Wright … well worth a listen. He says some good things about the future …. some people who were quite freaked at pub theology a while back about some views of the future might benefit from listening to Wright’s podcast.

There is also a great series here from Jonny Baker … again well worth a read.

If you are looking for a great Bible resource then people up there in Nottingham have come up with Bibledex. This looks pretty good with a short video introduction to each book of the Bible. I’m sure there are lots of ways to make use of this …. if only I was still a youth worker!

While I inhabit this temporary stage of confusion and un-creativity, I have found the photos of Den and the creations of Zara to be both inspiring and restorative of my faith in the creativity of people.

An I can’t forget Naked Pastor … he keeps me sane and makes me laugh … especially on October 19th!

do it anyway!

This piece of truthful wisdom just seemed to grab, or resonate, with me today:

People are often unreasonable and self centred.
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of alterier motives.
Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you.
Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous.
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough.
Give your best anyway.

For you see, in the end, it is between you and God.
It was never between you and them anyway.

Mother Teresa, 1979 Nobel Peace Prize Laureate