Frustrated by Love

As a ‘good Anglican’ I try to follow Common Worship Daily Prayer in the morning. I say ‘try’ not out of weakness but out of a desire not to be tied to unnecessary guilt trips which Jesus actually freed us from.

I struggle with a particular prayer called ‘the collect’ which is a special prayer for the day. I guess I don’t fully understand the point but today’s hit me in a clearer way than normal:

Lord, you have taught us
that all our doings without love are nothing worth:
send your Holy Spirit
and pour into our hearts that most excellent gift of love,
the true bond of peace and of all virtues,
without which whoever lives is counted dead before you.
Grant this for your only Son Jesus Christ’s sake,
who is alive and reigns with you,
in the unity of the Holy Spirit,
one God, now and for ever.

Love over arches all we do as Christians. There seems to be a lot around ‘church’ at the moment of ‘love’ being sidelined and ‘possessing truth’ being the over arching attribute. I do not mean only the Anglican Communion here with the current sexuality discussion, but also the Roman Catholic church of which some priests will tell me that the catholic way is the only way, some free church who call the Roman Catholics a sect (which as the majority Christian denomination is difficult to see!).

Everyone wants to be right. More than that – actually it seems that some do not only wish to be right, but want to take delight in attempting to prove that others are wrong. Of course, while these discussions continue, those that need to be introduced to the loving, missional, trinitarian God miss out on the opportunity to do so, or steer clear because they see that those who already have a relationship with Christ can’t get on.

One of the reasons the church grew rapidly in Acts is that people liked what they saw and so the number grew daily. What they saw was radical acts of love and community. Even before that if we look at the disciples we see their people who would have initially hated each other able to exist in community (tax collector and zealot)

Lets stop trying to prove ourselves right, others wrong and get back to following Jesus …. let’s get back to love!

slow down and notice

Back from a relaxing holiday which was a bit wet on occasions but we don’t let a little thing like rain spoil time away.

We visited a few places … vineyards, Leeds Castle (thanks Jen and Paul!), travelled on a steam railway and generally laughed and marvelled at how the children are growing up.

It was a great experience traveling on the steam railway. The character of the coaches, the clunking of the doors, the springy seats, the slow ramble through the countryside all made the experience so much better. It caused us to think that not all that is new is necessarily better. Sometimes, slowing down and having the time to not only notice but enjoy the environment around you is a great experience.

If we never do that we miss out on so much.

holiday

Off for a short break for the rest of the week.

Looking forward to chilling, playing, talking, laughing, eating, drinking with my wonderful family.

it’s all relative

We’ve had a few mini disasters at home over the last few days.

Last week I smelt gas a couple of times in the kitchen and so gave Transco a ring to be on the safe side. they were with us within 30 minutes and disconnected and ‘condemned’ the cooker as it was leaking gas. Since then we’ve had someone come to look at it and it cannot be fixed – its a large range type thing over 15 years old which you can go longer get spares for and so we are currently surviving on a baby belling and microwave.

Last night we were both woken up by the dripping of water through our ceiling. Currently we have 2 buckets on the bedroom floor and tomorrow we are supposed to off on holiday for a few days in the caravan. As well as leaking, about a third of the ceiling looks very wet … so we may have an interesting time ahead.

I was starting to get stressed about this until I saw the news and remembered my brothers and sisters in Burma who have no food, no shelter, no warmth, no protection.

My little hassles fade into a total significance when I pause to think about others.

If you have not donated to the Burma Aid appeal you can do so by clicking here

Indi treasure spaces

We caught the new Indiana Jones film today as a family – it was a lot of fun and will please you if you like the other three films.
The film is full of Indiana type jokes and action … it’s as if he has never been away!
There is some interesting mix of spirituality and postmodernism in a very modern setting which seems to work in an odd but interesting way.
Favourtite quote: ‘They are not going to space … but to the spaces between space’

Without giving the plot away, the film has quite a powerful message about what we believe our ‘treasure’ is and how our lives are lived out with that desire. Now where have I heard all that treasure stuff before? God talking through film again.

regrets ….

I got back from the south west last night after 3 days, 700 miles, quite a few meetings and good training sessions with YFC trustees.

I have been challenged by the levels of mission I have seen. I have enjoyed meeting with people who I am going to miss when I leave YFC. I have had the privilege of hearing dreams, sharing tears, enjoying meals, laughing with friends and visiting some pretty nice parts of the world. My one regret on such a trip, as ever, is that I can never spend enough time in one place to really enjoy it. One unusual exception was having a spare 90 minutes yesterday in Teignmouth which enabled me to eat a sandwich, drink good coffee and gaze out to sea. As I look across the vast expanse of the sea I always seem to connect meaningfully with God.

Traveling between centres can often be pretty full on but I enjoy the thinking on my feet side of the job that is often needed on trips like this. My other regreat is that all the driving takes it toll on my aging back. The result of this is that I can’t be involved in the MBS fair tomorrow as I have for the last couple of years. I can’t really move or stand long enough to be of any use to Dekhomai.

I shall miss the authentic interaction with people, the privilege of praying for people, the sights of healing, the searching conversations, the mystery and challenge, and the wonder of realising that God is not only present but incredibly active in such a place.

I’m really gutted by this as a particular highlight of my year – but I guess while I am sat or lying at home I can pray for the team! Please pray for the Dekhomai team for the rest of this weekend.

the need for a father?

I’m quite disturbed by this part of the vote last night in particular as we now seem to have legislation that deliberately plans for no father to be involved in the life of a child.

Technology has meant we can take this step for a while, but this is disturbing as it takes away the right of the child to have a father and sees the right to have a baby as more important.

I am disturbed because of my personal situation. For years I never knew my natural father, but I knew I had a father out there somewhere. As I got older the desire to ‘find my father roots’ became very strong and the finding of that person became quite important. The fact that that father has little to do with me, or doesn’t want much to do with me, is immaterial – its important for me to know who my father is.

Last night MP’s voted and effectively took away any way of meeting that need for some children. I can’t help but wonder what effect this is going to have when children ask the question and they are told that, actually, they have no father.

I think it could be devastating and potentially a lot of children could be at risk of mass identity crisis.

Friends and travelling

It’s been great to spend the evening with friends tonight. A massive bonus of being in YFC is the quality of friendships I have developed over the years.

Tonight I am staying with Paul and Nia in Cheltenham and its simply great being with people who have a wonderful gift of hospitality. It’s so easy to feel comfortable here and I appreciate that.

It was also great to pop out tonight, meet the new chair of Cheltenham YFC and grab the end of the football – I was a neutral but felt immensely sad for John Terry – sometimes it is a cruel game …. as many Gillingham fans will agree

Tomorrow I’m off to Taunton to meet up with Lucy and do some training with the Taunton YFC trustees … don’t think they have internet that far south!

Friday I’m off to Bath YFC before traveling to the Teenbridge Project near Torquay.

Quite a few miles still ahead of me!

it hurts

A day in the south west and I’m challenged again about the sacrifice that people make for mission and ministry. I’m struck by the sheer effort people are putting in, often in dire circumstances with little encouragement or support from ‘local church’.

Today, in the privacy of my car, I have wept for people and it’s quite a sobering experience. I’ve been reminded again of the raw edge of ministry.

Ministry hurts, ministry costs, ministry makes demands in ways nothing else does – it is not good for your health and anyone that thinks ministry gives a status needs to take a fresh look at how Jesus was continually treated alongside his ultimate fate.

Another day which has highlighted amazingly, following my last blog, that ministry costs big time.

south west centres

For the next few days I am visiting our (YFC) centres in the south west. Over the next few days I will be visiting Gloucester, Cheltenham, Torquay, Bath, Bristol, Taunton, Yeovil and maybe some other places. I shall be meeting up with various people such as YFC directors, volunteers and trustees as well as grabbing a meeting with Michael Volland who is pioneering exciting stuff from Gloucester Cathedral with Feig. I think Michael will be someone I chat a bit with as I start at Rochester Cathedral.

I’m not sure what internet access I’m going to have while away so the blog will probably be quiet.