Tomorrow, with my other colleagues in the diocese, I will be renewing my commitment to service as a priest in the cathedral at the Chrism Eucharist. This year Bishop Graham Cray is preaching and so I am looking forward to that.
For the last few years this has been a special time as we have all got together, with our bishop, to pray and re-commit to serving God and the church.
This year will be no different …. it will be still be a special time … but this year I find myself frustrated as to what the church has or is becoming.
Tonight I was planning for the MSM session that I will be teaching on next week and this video clip will be used:
It brought tears to my eyes tonight because I really do believe that this is what church should be. I really do believe that this is what I was ordained to be involved in. Sadly …. I also really do believe that the institution means that the meetings, sales, buildings etc etc etc so often take a higher priority than discipleship.
I guess I’m struggling to believe tonight that anything will ever change …. and that’s hard to stomach.
Because … if church is not about making disciples, if it’s not about love and liberation ….. then why church?
But …. tomorrow … I really do want to believe that this can be church …. so I will simply pray …. Lord help my unbelief!