The Church of England has an interesting looking online Advent Calendar.
‘Advent is like a hungry man waiting for a feast’ says Archbishop John Sentamu.
SEITE bishops
Meetings
I met up with Brian today for lunch and it was great to just generally catch up; we had no agenda and just talked and listened. It was a great time and I think we should meet with no agenda, and just because we are friends, far more often than we do. Too much of life is taken up with agendas and meetings – no wonder nothing gets done!
Tesco Diesel?
This is odd so I’m asking if anyone else has had this experience?
I seem to be noticing that if I fill up at my local supermarket, that the car does a good number of miles less than if I fill up at Esso or some other ‘brand’ garage.
I seem to have noticed this a number of occassions now.
Is this my imagination, my unique experience – or have others had similar experiences?
Great News
Art of Connecting in Plaistow
I was involved in some of the teaching of AOC in Plaisow on Saturday.
The Whole, part of Transform Newham, held this one day conference for young people who wanted to think more about sharing their faith. The day was fantastic and it was exciting to engage with these wonderful young people.
One young womans comment will stay with me for a while. After someone asked the question ‘when was the last time you shared your faith?’, she answered that she was shocked when she thought about it, because she had not shared her faith for at least …. 2 weeks!!!!
I think I must have met an evangelist!
Stay like a kid!
The retreat was a great time away, although I was not too sure about one of the people doing some of the input, but others were impressed so I guess that was a personal thing.
Just being in the place is a pleasure. It’s hard to explain but it is such a calm and Godly place. I think it is impossible to leave in any other way than relaxed and feeling re-connected to God. The sisters were, as always, lovely to us and have such a great serving heart. One even called me ‘a lovely youngster’ after I helped her sort out her mobile phone!
A particular memory I am taking away from the weekend is ‘a word’ I was given while being prayed for. The gist of this was that I have a ‘natural cheeky child sense of humour’ ( I think that means immature!) and that during my training people were going to expect and suggest that I will need to ‘grow up’. My friend felt God was saying it was important that I do not conform in this way and that I kept that child-like humour as God is going to use this in my mission. This really hit home with me as recently I hve been questionning who I am and how I, as I am, naturally fit into all this which resulted in me thinking can it be really right to continue with this and try and be different to who I really am. Now I think all this makes sense.
I was quite excited by that – not sure my family are though!
3 days of quiet -ish

I’m off in the morning with the other ‘leaders’ of YFC for our annual senior managers retreat at the nunnery in Nympsfield.
I love this place. The nuns are lovely and look after us well, the place is very quiet and its quite comfortable which means getting into the ‘reflective’ mood is quite easy.
I love this place because as well as retreating to be with God, we laugh a lot together. It’s cool as we all get on really well – I guess we are united in our desire to see individual lives transformed.
I love this place because in the evenings we can drink a great real ale called Pigs Ear! In my book its second only to Old Speckled Hen.
What if … Pelagius had won the argument?
I took a day off (!?) today to read and write.
I have looked at the Pelagian controversy and had to write a closing letter in a debate which we will be having in 2 weeks time. I, and 2 friends, will be Augustine debating with 3 others who are Pelagius.
It’s an interesting argument where Pelagius believes that as we were made by God he gave us the ability not to sin and that our salvation all depends on how we achieve. We are under obligation to lead sinless lives!
Augustine on the other hand argued that although originally that was the case, since the fall we naturally fall into sin and can only be saved by the grace of God. He days if we consider a pair of balance scales, the scales are weighted onthe side of sin as this is where we will naturally go. We, says Augustine, continually need God’s help. So, salavtion is not earned, but is freely given!
I’m now thinking through the significance of this argument for today.
It’s another ‘what if …’
If the church had agreed with Pelagius we would be leading pretty austere and frightening lives. Churches would be full of people who believed they did not sin, and that no one else needed to. Surely this would result in congregations full of judgemental narrow minded people who could not see their own failings because of their interest in the failings of others. Those that did sin would not be welcome and if they complained of difficulties would have been pushed aside due to their ‘feeble excuses’ in the words of Pelagius.
People would not be real. They would pretend everything was alright.
I’m now wondering if Pelagianism has disappeared after all!
Anyway – back to thinking of it’s sgnificance for today!
Empty
You can’t say you’re empty ….
But …
I’ve Felt it.
I’ve sensed it.
I’ve tried to get away from it.
I’ve felt guilty about it.
Sometimes…
I sense …
nothing.
Been there?
Can you …
empathise?
relate?
see where I’m coming from?
stand in my shoes?
silence out there
silence in here
silence at every corner
a vacuumous space
threatening to indwell me
attempting to consume me
beginning to squeeze me
into a mould of …
emptiness
is it possible
to have a relationship
with God
and feel empty?
alone?
deserted?
My God, My God
Why have you forsaken me?
said Jesus
so it must be!


