Penance

Tonight at SEITE we looked at emotions and forgiveness in church.

Forgiveness is an interesting subject to look at, particularly how we talk of it, how we act it out and how we confer it.

In part of the lecture we watched the part in The Mission where the Slave Trader chooses some penance to do. It’s a very poignant scene and illustrates well some peoples need to feel the effects of something, to make some penance, as taking a rather bland ‘Jesus forgives you’ is too easy and unhelpful, although it is true.
We chatted about the difficulty of accepting the idea of penance when in our protestant tradition we teach Jesus is enough and penance is an unnecessary baggage to inflict on people.

While I agree with that in part as we were talking it became clear that actually many of us, including this character in the film, need to actually do something to be able to effect and take on board the weight, or release, of God’s forgiveness and doing something helps in this. I have often felt in ‘normal’ services that the general confession and absolution does not really help in a concrete way. In fact it is possible to blink and miss what is going on due to familiarity.

I was struck in the lecture that we may have been encouraging a form of penance in youth and alt worship for some time. I have been involved in many services where we have invited people to bring things symbolically after a time of confession and place them at the foot of the cross, or to wrap things with incense and burn them, or hold tight a pebble and throw it as far in to the sea as possible.

I wonder if this is a kind of penance – an act where we are helping people realise both the seriousness of their sin, but the greater seriousness of God’s love which releases them from the effects of that sin. Acting out symbolically the act of God’s forgiveness in the destruction of the negative effects of sin can be quite a powerful act in our discipleship.

Bank Holidays

It’s great having only a 4 day week ahead.
This weekend has seen time for friends.
The end of the football season – which is a relief for all Gills fans!
A walk along the River Medway.
Booking our holidays in the ‘new’ caravan
Reading for assignments.
SEITE lectures! (they don’t stop for Bank Holidays!)

Bitten off more than I can chew …?

It’s 2am and I’m staring at the screen thinking I should go to bed but also wanting to get some things done as I’m wondering how I am going to fit in writing up and finishing off activities for 3 retreats, writing some assignments (well reading for them would be start!), following up some YFC pastoral issues, supporting the school I’m a governor at, planning a service for Love Gillingham and plenty of other things.

The problem is I have been away this week, I am away most of next week leading a retreat and the weekend is a SEITE training weekend. I have a distinct feeling of sickness thinking stuff just ain’t gonna get done.

I’m feeling that I read this weeks Quotes for Today too late this week:

Your capacity to say “No” determines your capacity to say “Yes” to greater things.

E. Stanley Jones

ah well … I’m off to bed to sleep on it!

Pioneer stories

While away I caught up with 2 great people.

I met Martin Green, a youth and community worker at the Sanctury Church in Bristol. The Sanctuary meets in a converted cinema and Martin is into street dance and has acived some exciting stuff with the community reaching 140 young people through a dnce session. We met to chat about the possibility of a Bristol YFC. We got quite excited about the possibilities and he is going to look to see if others may have a similar vision. If you are in the Bristol area and share a desire to see some good missional work reaching the young people of Bristol get in touch with Martin.

On Thursday it was great to be able to spend 90 minutes and hear Michael Volland’s story of being an ordained Pioneer Minister working out of Gloucester Cathedral. There is some exciting authentic stuff here and Michael shared some great lessons from his experience which was great to hear. I have been following Michael’s blog for a little while and was keen to meet up and hear how things worked behind the scenes. The more I think about a pioneering role, the more I am thinking that being based, and accountable to, the cathedral makes a lot of sense and is probably something that should be carefully looked at.

Martin, Michael – thanks for giving up your time to share your stories.

mission needs

I’ve returned frommy hectic little tour of the south west centres and friends.
It’s impossible to pick out highlights as all the centres are doing some really exciting stuff and I picked up some fresh ideas to share with other centres which is cool. Along with the excitement of mission, I also heard about the stresses and difficulties that inevitably come with the mission focus that we have. Stresses such as the need for money, the need for people, the need for understanding, the need for support, and so on. I must admit I got frustrated as I listened – not with my YFC friends but with God.

I don’t think we have a right to expect things, but why does God seem to be fairly succesful at calling people into mission but not so succesful at calling people to resource it? By that I mean we have hundreds of staff that have answered the call, left jobs, taken pay cuts, taken years out and so on. (I share that as an illustration and not to brag!)Despite this every church or mission agency that you can think of always needs money.

Each centre I visited has a need for financial and people resources. Last week I was looking at budgets at YFC and we need to trim them to balance the books. Despite this there are many Christians ‘out there’ in these towns that could make a significant difference by regularly giving money (as little as £10 per month!) to these centres. Many more could give more.

Why can’t, or won’t, people resource mission that they see others called to do?
Is it because they like their comfortable lifestyle?
Do they think those involved in the mission should get a real job?
Is it simply not important to them?

A shocking fact is that I know in some of those centres and churches I have been involved in that the biggest givers will be some of the staff themselves. When I directed Gillingham I know this was the case. So those called are paying themselves in effect as from the little they get paid they tithe to their centre or church!

This is not just a YFC thing – it’s the same in church – including Fresh Expressions and Emerging Church. Workers are struggling for finance to enable things to happen.
I can’t think of anything else to say but … ‘it’s not right!’ As a body with different tasks, some are blessed with teaching, preaching, pastoral or healing gifts while others are blessed with financial, prayer and encouraging gifts.

All parts of the body need each other to complete the task.

This is a good time for me to thnk my personal supporters – you know who you are – that read this as without you having sorted this ‘body thing’ out in your head I wouldn’t be doing what I am doing – so thank you.

Off to the south west

I’m off to the south west for a few days for YFC meetings in Swindon, Bath, Bristol, Nailsea, Cheltenham and Gloucester.
Please remember my travels in your prayers.

New Amnesty Film

Taking Liberties looks interesting, but I am leading part of a retreat with YFC and so can’t get to see it. Ifyou are in the area it might be worth going to see.

The rights of people in our own country is something we hear little about and many assume that as we live in this beautfully democratic country that stuff does not happen. Is that true? What don’t we see? Many of us are aware of the way Brian Haw has been treated. Is he just the tip of the iceberg?

could this be … ?

… the birth of a newer, younger, monasticism in my back garden?

creative pain

It’s been a mixed day. Last night, on returning from a governors meeting at school, I managed to weirdly ‘tweek’ my back as I got out of the car. I was not twisting weirdly, nor was I carrying anything. The result today has been a mixture of pain which has caused me to cancel my drive to Cambridge tomorrow – as getting into the car is ok, but out takes a little while!

The pain has enabled an interesting creative streak. I have been planning parts of our senior workers retreat which we are holding in a couple of weeks – the inability to sit in one position for too long has meant I have had to move around – and the moving seems to have aided my thinking.

I have planned session on contemplation and what that is all about as well as a contemplative walk for one of the afternoons where I plan to use places on the walk as stations to pray, worship and think on God.

I am also wanting to plan a session on looking at when things go wrong in ministry. I have some ideas, such as they go wrong when we allow the ministry to meet our needs (the need to be needed etc), or when our relationships are under pressure, or when we blow it and can’t say sorry. I wonder if any readers have any ideas for this session – would be helpful!

Reel Questions

Excited to say that Reel Questions kicked off last night at St. Marks.
It was good in that there was a number of people there – not as many as we would have liked but not as few as I feared! Reel Questions is a 5 week course that Jim and I wrote last year looking at Christianity through contemporary film. I led last nights session on Identity using I Robot, Collateral and Blade Runner.

We start by chatting in our table groups (covered with cheese and wine)about some statements made about the topic. Then we look at a few film clips and discuss each of these in the table groups. Finally someone present around 5/10 minutes of what Christianity and the Bible says about the topic and again discuss that in the table groups. Last night there was a lot of discussion going on which was cool to see.

Next week Jim will be looking at Love with Love Actually, Bridget Jones , Passion of Christ.