12 disciples

This has been a very encouraging read. Andy shares these journeys of young peoples faith and i like the ‘incompleteness’ of these stories.

By that I mean it was exciting to read of stories that are not the finished product. In fact I am tired of reading stories where ‘people become Christians and everything is happy ever after’. In these stories some are Christians, some are asking and searching, and all still have struggles.

The stories of these disciples are gritty – some made me smile, others made me cry – all speak of the reality of faith and how tough it is to even consider Christ, let alone follow him!

This is a good short and encouraging read!

Dreams and visions and disappointment


It’s been in incredibly draining day, but a day at the end of which I feel I have made a difference and been a help to others.

I am a governor at a local secondary school who are having to restructure. Every day this week governors are interviewing most of the staff for jobs at the school. Today we started at 8.30 am and finished at 3.30. We interviewed 12 people for a variety of jobs.

Although the day was hard as we are constantly aware that we are dealing with peoples lives I felt a great privilege to ask questions and hear of peoples dreams and desires to work with, and enable young people to reach their full potential. The decisions today were hard because lots of people were obviously passionate for the work they do. Obviously with all interviews some will be disappointed as they will not be appointed – I wish that was not the case.

This evening I joined the trustees of Peninsula YFC who are a bunch of people that are also passionate for the young people of their area. Not a school this time, but a large rural area that is part of Medway. In September PYFC will be appointing their first worker and this is a dream come true for these people who have met every few weeks diligently, giving up time out of busy lives, sacrificing time for other to see their dream come true.

When Gemma starts in September it will be an exciting time as they see their vision, which I first heard from them nearly 3 years ago, become a reality. Even here, though, some will be disappointed as they see the vision go in exciting ways which are not the ways they thought it might go.

In both meetings today the key to ‘success’ has been dreaming and taking that difficult leap of faith and seeing what happens. There are no guarantees. With the step will come disappointment in various degrees, but with that step also comes a fresh insight, excitement and wonder at what God can achieve.

travelling faith

I have been thinking a lot about journeys recently. Tomorrow morning I leave early to be in taunton for 10 am before travelling back later in the day after meeting up with some YFC friends.

I have often heard the Christian life described as a journey and I think it is. Alongside this description, however, I also hear arguments over ‘brands’ of worship, particular beliefs, and so on. This frustrates me. People talk of journeys but expect everyone to follow the exact same path.

Why can’t we understand that if we are on a journey that means exactly what it says. People on journey’s are all at different places. The Christian journey reminds me so much of a Hash.

If you don’t know what a Hash is then you need to look here. When I visited my step father in Qatar every chance I got when on holiday we would hash weekly. Tjos of you that know me well that a drinking club with a running problem is probably the club I am best suited for – far more than ordained ministry in the CofE! (in fact maybe a good alternative is to find a good hash in the south east!)

In the hash some loved to run off, investigate all the trails, run back, share their info and then rush off again. Others were happy to run far enough behind the leaders so they did the journey, but no unnecessary extras – in fact I used to hang back far enough so I could work out short cuts! Others walked. Others drove the 4WD’s to the end of the race to set up the BBQ and ensure the beers were cold. The point was this was a community all travelling in the same direction. The over-riding aim was that we moved forward together, not that we all get there at the same time.

If we are going to say the Christian life is a journey we need to take on board what that actually means – people travelling in the same direction, but using a massive variety of routes to get there. If we can do that the experience will be incredibly richer!

Proud Dad

Today I am proud for a number of reasons.
Seeing Joe baptised was amazing.
The excitement
the nervousness
the strength of his promises
So little and young, and yet
so full of potential and promise.

Lord
Continue to lead him
Bless him
Inspire him
Amen

a personal mission statement

One of my readings this morning in the Daily Office was Micah 6: 6-8:

How can I stand up before GOD
and show proper respect to the high God?
Should I bring an armload of offerings
topped off with yearling calves?
Would GOD be impressed with thousands of rams,
with buckets and barrels of olive oil?
Would he be moved if I sacrificed my firstborn child,
my precious baby, to cancel my sin?
But he’s already made it plain how to live, what to do,
what GOD is looking for in men and women.
It’s quite simple: Do what is fair and just to your neighbour,
be compassionate and loyal in your love,
And don’t take yourself too seriously-
take God seriously.

Do what is fair and just, be compassionate and loyal, don’t take yourself too seriously – seems a pretty good aim to me!

a disturbing day on faith?

Lev started me thinking on this whole silver ring thing today in the news.
After reading Lev’s blog and commenting I had lunch with the 1 o clock news on BBC1.
i saw the girl, Lydia Playfoot, being interviewed and she said
‘Christians have been pushed aside a bit ….we’ll fight for what we believe, we’re not going to be walked over.’

As I heard those words everything within me wanted to scream ‘no’. I can’t help but think What Would Jesus Do in this situation. I can’t be sure, but based on his trial, would he fight for his rights? Would he decide it was time to make a stand? Would he stop people walking all over him? 1 Peter 2 reminds us of a Jesus that did not retaliate, but I think 2 Philippians is even more explicit here:

Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God,
did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death–
even death on a cross!
Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
and gave him the name that is above every name,
that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.

I think this is suggesting that our attitude should be like that of Jesus – the Jesus that did not consider equality but instead made himself as nothing. That does not sound like a Jesus who wants to fight for his rights.

I’m no doormat – but there is something about Christianity and serving others, rather than fighting for ourselves, that is inextricably linked.

I find this even more frustrating as once again the ‘other faiths’ card has been pulled. Lydia is free to challenge her school (and well done to her), but as part of her defence why is there a need to bring anti other faith views into the argument? Lydia states that Sikhs and Muslims may wear headscarves and bangles in school while she can’t wear her ring. Surely the point here is that Sikhs and Muslims have to wear that attire – it is part of their faith.

As Christians, people under grace, we have no such laws over our heads. We are not bound by such stipulations – Jesus came to free us from such things. In addition the school says she can wear a cross or crucifix (again not a required symbol) which seems very fair. The bottom line is – this school has a no rings rule as part of school uniform. I assume when the governors made such a ruling they considered if this would conflict with any faith and rightly concluded that it would not. Knowing this, Lydia’s Playfoot’s parents enrolled her in this school so I really can’t understand what all this fuss is being made for!

My supporters and grace

I have spent today, as have all national YFC, working on my personal support. In the main for me this has meant writing a prayer letter and designing a thank you for each of them.

As a national member of staff I agree to find people to give a monthly amount to YFC to cover 50% of my salary. I have 40 amazing people ‘out there’ who support me in this way ranging from £10 to £185 per month. Each of those people give sacrificially so that YFC can increase the mission we do.

It just amazes me how generous people are. Some of my supporters I do not know very well, or have only met once while others are family members and people I have known for years. Some come from the blog community – so if you’d like to join my team of supporters please get in touch as I do still have vacancies for people who want to invest in mission to young people.

Today, I have written my letter based around grace.

A little bit of interesting research – my concordance tells me that in the Old Testament grace is mentioned 8 times. In the New Testament, grace is mentioned 121 times – I think that is a clear indication of the difference that Jesus makes.

If the OT is all about complying with the law, then the NT is about our freedom because Jesus has fulfilled the law. I just long to get this message across to those of us that still feel we have to reach a certain standard, or act a certain way, or believe in a certain way to be acceptable to Jesus.

Yes – there are some basic things to believe, such as Jesus being God incarnate, Jesus resurrecting from the dead and so on – but so many get hung up other other things which seem quite secondary: drinking/not drinking, sorts of music, sexuality. Romans 6:14 tells us that grace is the key.

I wish I could get out there and live like I believed that!

Anyway – don’t forget, if you wish to join my personal support team, please drop me a line.

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another great desert father saying

Abba Pastor said:

A person must breathe humility
and the fear of God just as ceaslessly
as they inhale and exhale air.

That challenges me for the rest of the day.

Penance

Tonight at SEITE we looked at emotions and forgiveness in church.

Forgiveness is an interesting subject to look at, particularly how we talk of it, how we act it out and how we confer it.

In part of the lecture we watched the part in The Mission where the Slave Trader chooses some penance to do. It’s a very poignant scene and illustrates well some peoples need to feel the effects of something, to make some penance, as taking a rather bland ‘Jesus forgives you’ is too easy and unhelpful, although it is true.
We chatted about the difficulty of accepting the idea of penance when in our protestant tradition we teach Jesus is enough and penance is an unnecessary baggage to inflict on people.

While I agree with that in part as we were talking it became clear that actually many of us, including this character in the film, need to actually do something to be able to effect and take on board the weight, or release, of God’s forgiveness and doing something helps in this. I have often felt in ‘normal’ services that the general confession and absolution does not really help in a concrete way. In fact it is possible to blink and miss what is going on due to familiarity.

I was struck in the lecture that we may have been encouraging a form of penance in youth and alt worship for some time. I have been involved in many services where we have invited people to bring things symbolically after a time of confession and place them at the foot of the cross, or to wrap things with incense and burn them, or hold tight a pebble and throw it as far in to the sea as possible.

I wonder if this is a kind of penance – an act where we are helping people realise both the seriousness of their sin, but the greater seriousness of God’s love which releases them from the effects of that sin. Acting out symbolically the act of God’s forgiveness in the destruction of the negative effects of sin can be quite a powerful act in our discipleship.

Highs and lows of the weekend

Highs of the weekend:
Beth passed her cycling proficiency
shouting at the ref with Darren!
Gills won 2-1, although I don’t know how!
The baptism of David at St Marks
lunch with the in-laws on Sunday
Watching Dr Who – fantastic!
Watching George of the Jungle with my boys!

Lows
seeing a policeman abuse a couple of Gills fans
(so bad I felt the need to ring and make a formal complaint when I got home)
watching the Phelps on BBC2 – unbelievable and certainly not the Christianity I know!
missing friends who were not around

As we enter holy week there are many highs and lows that we can focus in on of that 1st century event that we remember.