I joined the Solent YFC crew for breakfast in Portsmouth this morning. I would like to be able to say I saw God in the early morning light as the world woke up around me, but sadly I will have to be honest and say I could not.

I think today I have experienced God in the new friendships I have with Martin, Carly and Ed. They are highly valued an their acceptance and trust of me as a friend is indicative of God’s nature, but despite that I think I have squeezed God out today.

I had four hours in the car and loads of opportunity to indulge in God’s presence. In all honesty, though, I did not feel up to it and listening to Moyles on the radio in the morning and Moorcheeba on CD in the afternoon – it just said a bit more about where I am at today.

When I got home I felt a little guilty about my lost opportunity. Four hours of conversation and life changing encounter with The Creator that I had just thrown out the window, flushed down the loo or dumped in the bin.

It’s then that it hit me! There I was again having a go at myself and beating myself again up when I do not need to.

The best thing I like about really good friends is the value and comfortableness of silence. You kind of know the quality of the relationship by the ability to just sit in quiet together, or watch a film, eat a meal … whatever … without the need to feel it necessary to say something or do something. In fact, thinking, I know quite few people I can do that with.

Today I met with God, he was laughing at Chris Moyles’ take on life at the same time as me and listening and we were loving the beauty of Moorcheeba tracks together. We indulged in the physical presence of each other without the need for formal interaction. I quite like that thought.