This morning’s thought asks ‘what are you willing to give up?’ whilst adopting the Celtic Christian practice of thinking that lent calls for martyrdom.

I love how those Celts took a triune view of martyrdom with red being giving up your life, white being a major lifestyle change to follow God and with green being adopting a spiritual practice.

For the first time I’m seeing those martyrdoms from the other side. I have grown to adopt white and green into my life. The white has involved leaving a ‘career’ in education and taking roles, in the Christian world, which I felt called to. This is the traditional type question of asking what is God calling me to do and getting on with doing it.

The green I have adopted through practices that were started through previous Lent journeys which have become established in my life beyond Lent. For me this has been meditation and a program of silent retreats.

Following the brokenness that I alluded to yesterday, I find myself in the position that I can no longer do the white in the way I am used to. I have already given up roles and positions to follow God and I cannot currently continue in, or return to, that vein.

Currently I am settled in a new job which allows me to volunteer in a cause I am passionate about. It’s a job I absolutely love. I belong to a team that love to support each other and regularly call out great things seen in team members. I have a lot of fun and love what we do and I really wish I had found this place earlier. In the volunteering I can see, very clearly, how I am making a difference. All I have ever wanted to do is make a difference, and nothing major, just in my own little part of this amazing creation we live in and are part of.

Now …. And this is what has hit me today as I’ve mulled this stuff over ….. if God asked me to leave this job, and this volunteering, what would I do?

What would you do?