First – I want to thank a few of you who have asked if I’m ok as I have not blogged for a couple of days. To be honest this has been due to a couple of reasons; I have been getting used to a new way of working. I don’t think I expected to become so drained (the best word I can think of) from simply talking to people and ‘hanging around’. It seems that the adjustment from racing around to ‘dwelling’ has affected be in surprising ways.

I love being busy and am very used to fitting masses of work into small amounts of time and so the second reason is having to negotiate with my feelings of guilt from just walking around the high street and sitting in areas where I can ‘connect’ with people. At the end of each day I do not have anything concrete to show for a days work. That is quite an odd feeling and a feeling that has caused guilt when I know others are very busy and in turn added to the drain sensation.

To get home from just being and having nothing to speak of has, I guess, left me with nothing to blog here about.

Although its quite tough I do believe this is what God is calling me to do. I can’t quite see at this point in time how things are going to move forward, but I do feel I am responding to God on a daily basis as to where I should be going, sitting, drinking coffee or sometimes beer, eating lunch and just being available. I hope I will meet people who are searching for a way to relate to God. I pray this will be the case.

It is very early days and I do know that I am being noticed in certain places. I have met faces from the past which has been great, and I am getting used to life slowing down and I guess I need to think through how I can be more reactionary to what is happening around me – something that, again, is a challenge to someone who is used to having weeks of his timetable planned in advance. I now need to get used to life on a day by day basis – I guess this is what I got excited about all those years ago when I first heard of the the Missio Dei concept. I am searching for where God is working so that I can attempt to join in.